Hey Matt, firstly i feel your pain and wish your the strength to overcome it sooner rather than later. It indeed sucks but I actually think you're in a pretty good place. You're only 15 and this stutter is already arousing such feeling. On the one hand it's causing you a lot of pain and grief and frustration. On the other hand, it's forcing you to reach out and talk to people and learn more about your stutter. Getting proactive like this is how you're going to be able to take charge and get control of your life, regardless of your fluency. The other first thing I want to say is that your parents love you, and are likely acting the way they are in regard to your stutter because they're scared and dont know what to do and feel pretty powerless to help. Yelling at you and causing you more anxiety isn't helping, but it's not because they're angry with you or upset with you. That said, it is important for you to teach them how best to interact with you and explain to them how their yelling makes you feel. It doesn't help and actually makes the stuttering worse by making it seem like there's something wrong with you. There is nothing at all wrong with you all. Some people have asthma, some other have to walk with leg braces, you simply stutter. That's it. Even if you already knew this, i thought it was important enough to say again. I will say this, though it's completely understandable and not necessarily by choice, getting upset or feeling sorry for yourself and feeling jealous of fluent speakers isn't going to do anything to empower you to take control of your life and your speech. Stuttering is a life challenge we've been dealt but here's the deal: it's not unbeatable and it's doesn't need to control you. It is honestly only as big of a deal as we make it, we just need to learn for ourselves how to believe that it's not a big deal. Thats the hard part that is different for everyone. I could talk about this all day but there isn't enough space here. Feel free to message me with any rants or comments or questions or just whatever. I've been through a ton of therapies and read a lot about stuttering, not to mention have been through what you're going through now. I included some links below of support groups in Australia plus a pretty active facebook group online that you can check it. You say you don't want people to judge you, but I think as stutterers we judge ourselves more than anyone else does. You're girlfriend isn't dating you because she's super compassionate or has a soft spot for stutterers, she's dating you because she likes who YOU are and you are not your stutter; you're Matt. People really dont care about stutters as much as we think they do, I think you'll learn that soon enough. https://www.facebook.com/groups/407106159324800/ http://stuttering-answers.com/Australia-Stuttering-Support-Groups.html Check the ASA for groups if you live in Brisbane http://stuttertalk.com/