A few thoughts... What steps are you taking to pursue fluency? It's likely not going to happen on its own. It's going to take effort. When I was finally ready to become fluent I went back to speech therapy. I worked the program. Every day. I achieved fluency pretty rapidly once I made the decision to put in the work. TBF, I was lucky that I had a great speech therapist who specialized in stuttering. I take it from this forum that it's not easy to find qualified help. As to life being easier and what you can achieve... That's a cop out. The only reason you can't order the food you actually like is that you choose not to. You're allowing your stutter to make decisions in your life. It's something that happens to a lot of us. We find it easier to capitulate to our stutter than to pursue what we want. You're right that having a stutter is really, really hard. Allowing your stutter to run your life is harder yet. Best wishes to your dream of achieving fluency. Make it happen!