FML - nobody understands me. I am all by myself. So lucky I have YOU!

FML - nobody understands me. I am all by myself. So lucky I have YOU! I stutter since age 8 (now I have 25). During my childhood I had zero support from my parents (regarding stuttering). My father was emotional abusing, my mother denied (and still does) that I have any kind of problem. She never asked me about my stuttering, she never gave me any kind of support or saying like: "we will go through these together". When my teacher in elementary school told her that I stutter, she was angry at me. Wtf, how can you be angry at 8 years old girl who stutter??! Like it is all my fault... I hided stutter from all my other family members - I though this is ok and that my mom wants this. Till nowadays nobody knows I stutter (I am very calm and they think I am not talkative - btw, I stutter very little with people I know, so it is not very big deal to "hide"). I cant talk about stutter with nobody, I feel like I am hiding a big part of my personality... My bf knows about my stuttering (obviously he hears it), but he doesnt know everything about it. And guess what - my lifeget got even worse when yesterday made fun of my stutter. I started to cry and I realized I have nobody to talk to. I dont have job at the moment, I dont have any savings and I feel my life is harder every day more... uhhh, why I have to stutter.. why me ... Why cant I get a job and finally enjoy life (I have master degree in social science and in every job interview I stutter :(). ​ I dont know why I wrote this... I just wanted to get off my chest....