Important difference between alcohol/xanax and HRT is that: 1) hrt is not addictive 2) effect of hrt won’t wear off like xanax I never tried xanax or any psychiatric drugs before but I can tell you that being on HRT for less than six months is reversible. You will get back you sterility and libido after quitting it. Will take a couple of months though. My advice is to check out the reddit group for male to female transgenders and another page that they post the timeline of their physical changes. First see if you’re onboard with this and you are willing to emasculate yourself and never ever be able to be with any woman in any capacity, just like a eunuch, and ONLY THEN decide.