Keep your head up. I've been stuttering my whole life and I went through exactly the same things you're going through. The truth is, yes, it sucks, but it also gets better. You have to learn to accept it as part of your personality, and eventually you'll almost start ignoring it. I went though college, got my BSc and MSc, I worked for a bunch of companies and now have my own business, and I also teach at a local IT college - and this was by far the scariest - and the truth is, I did it just so I could say that I did it. To get over a hurdle. Stay strong. If you ever need help, don't hesitate to PM me.