IMO you are severely limiting yourself from your actual potential. The people I mentioned before have only the opportunities that they can manage. You have a choice, they don't. You can learn to overcome your fear/anxiety/etc by practicing and being confident in yourself. I'm not saying it's that it's easy, but your hard work will pay off. The point I tried to make earlier is that self pity isn't going to fix your problem. As a fellow stutterer, I got the humor aspect of your post, but in the end, the feeling you express in your message is real. EDIT: I just realized that you aren't OP, but yeah, this is what I meant.