I feel you bro. I used to say the same thing about my stutter, but it really eats you alive if you let it. I even tried therapy, and honestly it didn’t do much besides making me feel worse. What actually helped was training my mind to stop caring about what people think, just embracing it, living with it, pushing myself through it, and actually enjoying life to the fullest. At some point I just realized I should be grateful I got this and not something way worse, and that mindset shift made everything lighter.