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There were so many little steps I had to do. Because stuttering is different in every person, you have to experiment what works best for you. My previous experiences with SLPs were pretty bad. Therefore I didn't want to see a SLP again. I'm sure now, that there are pretty good experts for stuttering out there. But they are hard to find. So I started by learning more about stuttering on my own. My first book was the free E-Book by Malcom Fraser: http://www.stutteringhelp.org/sites/default/files/Migrate/book0012_11th_ed.pdf For many PWS it helps a lot to "simply" accept that you are going to stutter from time to time, and being open about it. Acceptance isn't a switch you flip. It takes a lot of time to change your viewpoints. But I couldn't at that time. Not with my amount of hard blocking and repetitions. I had to reduce the severity at the same time. So my first real action was to stutter as always, just slower, so that I had a chance to observe what I was doing wrong while I stuttered. I also reproduced some of the stuttering in front of a mirror. I started to get a feeling for what my mouth, tonge and vocal cords where doing. After about 4 weeks I was able to fight a few reflexes to push through a block. Turns out you stutter so much easier when you resist that urge to fight every block. Don't get me wrong. I still stutter much. It's not a failure but a chance to learn more about my stuttering pattern. Then it was time to speak with my relatives, friends and near coworker about my stuttering. At first this was a frightening step. Most likely you will also learn that most people don't mind nearly as much as you do about stuttering. I also had fear to use the phone. There is no short cut. Make a list of situations you fear while using the phone and sort it by the amount of fear you will probably feel. Start your slow way to experience all of them. An example would be: - holding the phone to your ear - holding the phone to your ear and start speaking to yourself - speak to a person you trust in the same room while holding the phone to your ear - speak over the phone to the person in the same room. - speak over the phone while the person is in another room - call a friend - call a friend while another person is in your room - call a coworker - call a coworker while another person is in your room - call a stranger - and so on... I'm still working on this. My current step is to call a contractor and discuss technical stuff with him, while coworkers are in the room. What also helped me a lot was listen to stutter talk. Do yourself a favor and start with the old episodes. They are deep. Going to a local support group also made it easier to deal with the feeling of beeing different. You see it's a long way.