I’ve been through the same. My stutter was at its worst when I tried to hide it. I didn’t want people to know so sometimes I avoided speaking and became really shy or I was overthinking all the time about what they think of me. Now I’ve accepted the way I speak. We might not be able to completely fix stuttering but we can learn to deal with it... at the end of the day it’s not a crime. Maybe people will know you as the guy who stutters but so what?