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Worst stutter in a long time Hey everybody, just needed to get this one off my chest. I have a relatively mild stutter but it can still get me sometimes. It has been getting more frequent over the last few years. Saturday we had some friends over and were standing in a circle just shootin the shit. I go to speak and could feel a block coming on the word "shelter". Even my usual method of saying a word I know I wont stutter on first didn't work. I just tried to push through it and get "shelter" out but it wasn't without 4 or 5 "sh-" sounds before it (2 is usually all it takes). I also had a really strong secondary response where I looked straight down and just closed my eyes, something I don't think I've ever done before. The long stutter in front of a group of people was embarrassing enough, what made it worse was my buddy jokingly saying something about 'having a seizure', and my sister asking "OMG are you okay" like there was something wrong with me. (she of course knows I stutter a little but I don't think she's ever heard one like this, also her intonation was not as supportive as it sounds in text) I did what I usually do after a bad stutter and just stopped talking for a while. Took a little time to just sit alone and gather myself. Every really bad one brings back the bad feelings from childhood of being stared and laughed at. I didn't think at 28 it would still be getting me like this but c'est la vie. Thanks for reading and its nice to have a community of people who simply understand.