There is no cure. People who claim they got some miracle cure are full of shit. It's hard work and will probably be the hardest thing you'll ever do. There are ways to deal with it so it's very manageable up to the point where it doesn't bother one anymore. Seen it, experienced it. You are damaged af or in some weird denial stage bro, it's the only conclusion I can make. Look at your response mechanism, you got some mad trauma. Again, it's shocking and am weirded out. If you'd ask me in a normal way, I would gladly share the most important things I learned in the last 10 years of self-development. What you'd do with it would be up to you. But you're a lost cause and chose your path. I get that now. Keep doing your doom thinking. Didn't know you were that guy, wouldn't have commented on you otherwise.