commentr/StutterSeptember 26, 2017

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I recently took mushrooms and it really changed me. I became more self aware of myself as a stutterer. I realized my entire life is affected because of my stutter. Relationships, jobs, school, etc... shit, even training my dog is sometimes difficult if i block while giving a command. I became more aware of the road ahead and realized I will probably stutter the rest of my life. I never saw that perspective before that mushroom trip. I wasn't really looking ahead. I realized my personality growing up was shaped because of my stutter. I'm pretty well liked, but people who don't know I stutter have sometimes described me as "mysterious" or "sketchy" because to them I'm that person who observes everything going on during a social situation without giving any input or feedback. I became aware I wasn't able to fully connect with others. I believe my stutter has made me introverted. After that mushroom trip I have become an angrier person. My stutter frustrates me more now than ever. During the mushroom trip I couldn't even get a word out. The friend I was doing it with eventually just told me we didn't have to talk. Everybody is different, but I wouldn't recommend psychedelics unless your mind is in the right place.

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Meds & SubstancesIdentity & DisabilityCauses & VariabilityEmotional Experience

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Psychedelics & MicrodosingIdentity & Self-PerceptionPropositionality & WeightFrustration & Anger

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psychedelics_dissociativesemotional_state