Wow, first trying therapy at 30 is really something. Just a quick note i've learned regarding therapists, they almost all mean well but there's actually very few who truly understand stuttering. Who really get the experience and even less who know how to take that experience and move you towards reducing struggle and gaining acceptance. So if you are with a therapist and it doesn't feel right. Or you're doing things you dont believe in, you need to question that. Everything you do should have a sound rationale that makes sense to you and if it doesn't, I wouldn't keep buying. And just because they give you a rationale, doesn't mean it's correct or its the only option. fluency shaping made sense to me when i went to intensive programs, but that's because I didnt know there were other options. It made sense but always felt a little wrong. Dont be afraid to challenge your therapist, trust your gut, and change if you need to. www.stuttertalk.com. This podcast is kinda a goldmine for figuring out what stuttering is about and they have many great episodes where they talk about therapists and therapy. Listen to it on your daily commute. But I would start exploring your feelings and talking about your stuttering. The podcast can really give you some good places to start. You also start by talking with your therapist if you trust him/her. And then you can bring it up with your family/parents or however you feel is best. But it's never too late to explore or to take action. Also, I wouldn't work on being totally comfortable. That's soooo down the road that you dont want to have that expectation now. Instead, try focusing on little goals and making baby steps. Start by letting yourself tolerating stuttering and "bad feelings" related with it when you're talking. Realizing that it's ok to have these feelings and they wont kill you.