The thing is someone who has no legs, or no hands or can't see, they'd love to run, love to be able to write with a pen, love to see colour but they can't Yes it's a big downer but if we have an impediment we have two choices, we can dwell, think 'we can't' or think this is our only life, gotta try and make the best of it and find other things that make us happy, because it's sad to think that it's making you think you'll kill yourself over it Can I suggest you look at the Starfish project, see what you think, you may not have heard of it!