The Lord does not betray. Youre the one betraying him by questioning the perfect nature of his creation. Think of the vanity required to feel betrayed by the ultimate gift of God. As if your suffering could ever equate the sacrifices made by the Son of Man for your sake. Get on your knees and thank the Lord for the gift hes made for you, for the opportunity to suffer in his name and offer that pain to Him. The stuttering doesnt cause you pain, your rebellion against the Love of God does.