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Im fucking done Hey there... I've lurked in this sub for a little while because I too have stuttered ever since I was a little kid. I'm posting here because today I finally hit rock bottom in terms of my speech. Earlier today I went to a steakhouse to eat (for my birthday that was yesterday), and for some reason I literally couldn't say anything on the menu. I got so fed up inside when the waiter finally made his way around to me at the table and I claimed I "didn't know what I wanted still". I ended up ordering something that I didn't even want to eat only because I could say it with only one stutter as opposed to two or more. After about 2 minutes of me trying to deal with the hard blocks (no sound or anything coming out) the waiter made some snide joke about me really having no idea what was going on. After this I quietly made my way to the restroom and balled my eyes out. Keep in mind that I'm 20 years old standing tall at 6'5", and haven't cried in probably over two years before that moment. Around last year this time my stutter wasn't nearly as bad, I had a job, girlfriend, wonderful group of friends that valued me, and the lot. This year (or I guess "last year" now that 2015 is a thing) I am unemployed, dont have a girlfriend or even any friends that are women to say the least, and my friend group from high school has pretty much abandoned me. I feel like it always comes down to my stutter holding me back. I can't talk on the phone to save my life. I can't order at a fucking restaruant MUCH LESS a simple drive thru. My interview skills are worse than that of a middle school student at this point. Fuck this. My life right now is deteriorating fast, and I feel like I'm backed into a corner and my stutter is just charging at me with a spear. P.S. No I'm not going to kill myself, Im just realizing how much life fucking sucks. **TL:DR** Life fucking sucks right now. Had a breakdown in the bathroom of a fucking Outback. Don't know what to do or even if there is anything to do.