Several years back I got into pickup thing and while I was motivated and hyped for few months I made progress in being more okay with stuttering around other people. First approaches I did was horribly painful experiences, but I end up having a date after one week, but I fucked it up. After month or two all that motivation faded away and slowly I got back to where I was. It all seemed so forced and unnatural. Now I kinda get used to being alone (still have friends and all). Worst part is that when I talk to someone new and stutter my body immediately gets into some kind of panic, shameful mode and my body language and face expression makes it much worse. Every stutter or block puts me into micro depression even if I'm like fuck it, I don't care. So first impression is always bad and then you have to try harder and basically I had no luck. So I just trying to do what I like and hope for some kind of miracle which is the worst thing :D. Have to try dating apps even though I hate them