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Stuttering is so dumb The thing that infuriates me the most about my stutter is how inconsistent it is. It's just so ridiculous to me that my brain will randomly gift me with near perfect fluency and at other times makes it so that uttering a single word is damn near impossible. Like, what in the actual fuck. Over the years I've tried identifying variables that can either mitigate or exacerbate my stutter, and surprisingly enough, I've been completely unsuccessful in identifying even one. I can eat nothing but junk food, get inadequate sleep, scroll Instagram for hours, and just do the unhealthiest shit one can think of and I'll speak like a poet. Other times I'll eat healthy, exercise, get sufficient sleep, drink lots of water, and I'll stutter uncontrollably like I've just been lobotomized in an early 1900s mental asylum. Confusing is an understatement, this shit is puzzling, perplexing, baffling, and most of all, bewildering. truth be told, I'd rather my stutter be perpetually bad than dealing with the constant fluctuations because then at least I'd be liberated from this dreadful uncertainty that creeps up every time I get ready to talk.