I have some unique characteristics with my stutter (I personally believe).

I have some unique characteristics with my stutter (I personally believe). I’ve had problems of stuttering since I could begin speaking from a young age, and over the years it has gotten better (my parents say) with my ability to maintain it ,if that’s the correct wording for it, but I’m still quite young only being 15 so I still don’t know what is to happen with my stutter and I later on in my life. But I’ve always heard stuttering is different for everyone so I want to see if other people with a stutter have similar experiences like I have. Since I can remember, my stutter would always come and go for some unknown reason and I’ve always said it’s like it has a mind of its own, since there will be times in my life where my stutter can get quite bad then other times it can be almost like I’ve never had a stutter before, with probably just some cluttering while I speak I believe I do sometimes as well. The irony to this too is that I am extremely good at speaking and articulating what I want to say when the stutter isn’t in the way, and I’m surprisingly quicker than all my friends with speaking too, for years this really bothered me and genuinely pissed me off since why me? Why have I been cursed with this constant hassle, every single day. And everyone around me telling me the same shit my entire life that I should just go slower when I speak, or think of what to say before I speak it. If it was that simple I’m sure no one would have a stutter. I believe this has damaged me socially as well since it was always easier a lot of the time to just be by myself a lot of my life, like in my own bubble since it was probably more effort to do anything else which most other people would just find easy and a normal part of their day. Though I think it has gotten to the point where I have just accepted it and at peace with it to some degree even though it’s still on my mind alot of the time most days. Even with this I still don’t consider my self with an extreme case of stuttering since I don’t, I’ve seen people with stutters far worst than mine and it genuinely breaks me even thinking of them since I’m so close to understanding what they live with and go through. I believe a lot of people in the world probably think they understand what a stutter is like and to some degree they do, but it’s the years of constant battle you have to have even just trying to have a basic conversation with someone throughout the day etc. I have more specifies with my stutter but think I’ve rambled on long enough. Perhaps things will change in the future since it’s to the point recently in the past like year that my stutter will be on my mind large amounts of the day now just constantly pissing me off and reminding me of this constant struggle I have with probably the most important part of a human’s life, being able to speak, and reminding me of the soon struggles I’m going to have to face too like getting a job, relationships etc. I don’t really use Reddit much so I apologise if there are any spelling mistakes in what I wrote, I am partly dyslexic and possibly have ADHD, so they tell me. And I know people on Reddit hate spelling errors from my past experiences with the people on this app.