It's not the confidence. I mean I can go up and talk to anyone and even hold a conversation sometimes. It's just the fact that I come off as a retard to other people when I do so. Blocking and making faces struggling to breathe is just sad. I also can't tell stories or jokes or anything more the 2 sentences so charisma is non existent for me. I don't see how you expect me to be happy with such handicaps