I'm a 30 year old female. My stuttering ranges from forming a complete fluent sentence to total blocks on the next. It's random for me day to day. I've often thought I would be a happier person if I didn't stutter. I think it makes me bitter, defensive, quick tempered and envious of fluent speakers at times. I hate repeating myself and I just want to be heard for what I'm saying and not how I'm saying it. I hate the looks I get, the contortions my mouth makes when I block and breaking eye contact because of my embarrassment for myself and the person I'm talking to. Stuttering is a daily struggle but even if I do it the rest of my life...I can't hope that one day it will just go away. I need to be happy for myself and live in the now or I'll just let the bitterness, anger and jealously take over and that's not the person I want to be. It's not fair to me and it's not fair to the people around me. As hard as it seems and as mentally exhausted as you might feel...it really could be worse...a lot worse. Life's too short to let yourself get the best of you.