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[Vent] Interview Currently looking for a new job, ironically in a field that has me talking, presenting, and communicating verbally a great deal. I've been a stutterer since I was a child, where I took speech therapy but that dissolved by the time I got to high school. Sometimes it gets bad around friends and I've found ways to work around it in meetings and presentations (usually it requires me to prep a great deal and practice a lot more than my more eloquent peers). So I had a phone interview with an organization that I thought I was prepared for. Practiced what I wanted to say, but the first half it went so horribly. Probably the worst interview I've ever had. I salvaged it towards the end of the hour long convo, slowly getting more and more comfortable as it went along, but I felt that the damage was done. I don't even care about getting that particular job anymore, but the whole ordeal kinda shook me. I know what I need to work on (i.e. I need to prep a LOT more than I did) and I'm glad I got a bad interview out of the way early on, but dear lord do I feel shitty. I can only describe it as having a seizure: I spent so much energy within such a short period of time that I feel drained for the rest of the day. Had to go into work regardless and had a rough few hours, tons of work, tons of things I needed to handle at my current job. I dunno, just wanted to vent about it here. A lot of my friends who I told were sympathetic, but much of their advice revolved around "you don't have a stutter" or "just fix it".