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Think i had a panic attack So I graduated from uni last year and it’s almost been a whole year since i started looking for a job in my field of study. I had some interviews for very cool positions but i failed my interviews since i stuttered like crazy but i never backed down. Recently tho I think i developed something mentally because I started to avoid doing interviews because of how much I was scared of talking( more like not talking). For example last week i had two interviews in program but I cancelled them the day before because i was so scared and I was having a panic attack . I always stuttered but I never backed down and I always did the things i had to do even if i might have stuttered but I don’t feel that strong anymore . 20 min ago I had an interview for an entry level role in accounting , I was very nervous but I felt ready and confident in myself. During the interview it felt like I was underwater , I couldn’t focus , my mind was blank, my head was turning and I felt my whole body getting hotter . I just wanted to leave the interview room ( it was online) but I tried to be strong and I held until the end. I’m so scared I won’t be able to see all my efforts turn to something and I will always be stuck in this circle. The worst thing is that I can talk , when I first introduced myself and had some small talk with the recruiter I talked fine without stuttering , it’s when I had to talk about myself and answer questions that I felt like I wasn’t in my own body. I just want to die honestly