I relate to the entire story and agree that people take fluent speech for granted. I'm 23 now and I'm sort of accepting it, but boy if I was granted one wish it would be to get rid of my stutter. Something I've been thinking on my entire life and I can't think of a better wish. My life would be so much better and the world would open all those millions of doors that were closed thanks to stuttering. The suicide part is the same for me. My mom, sister and brother deserves better than a dead son/brother that has always felt like a weird black sheep to everyone. I'm highly against getting kids because I don't want them to feel this way either.