Yep I'm 62 now and ive felt like this many times, thinking it would be easier, less embarrassing than having this damn curse.. I gave up a career I wanted many many years ago due to it, all I've had since is low paid driving jobs where I'm on my own all day, but I've always think what could of been.. It's damn hard I know, but if you can, try to stick to your career path, you will only have regrets and a lifetime of thinking what if...