Honestly, I've never posted on one of these before but I will today. I've had a horrible week apart from getting off college for the summer. I have 2 weeks work experience now, the first day was today. Last night I was pretty messed up in the head, had anxiety and yea, I had those thoughts. It's been half a year since I've had them last. Problem is, I wanted to work on my speech and clear my head for the 2 weeks, but instead my parents went ahead and organised it without my consent. I got up this morning after about 2 hours sleep, shaking so bad and I literally could hardly talk. Was an embarrassing day. I can't talk to my parents about how I'm feeling because they went to great lengths organising it. I'm working in an art centre, which is full of snobby artists and drama people - not the place I want to be. I got several questions about my name that I couldn't answer and overall I hate myself because of it. I was starting to do well in speech therapy and such and was starting to progress, but the next 2 weeks is going to be hell for me. New people come in every day to do work. That means introducing myself again and again. I can't take that. I feel sick as is, I do suffer from depression, but I am not taking meds for it, instead I speak to a therapist once a month. I won't be able to do the next 2 weeks, that's the bottom line. It's either going to end with me not going at all or having some anxiety attack as my level of shaking and the dissyness I get is not normal. TL;DR - Bad week