i’m jealous of others

i’m jealous of others how cooked am i that i am jealous of others being able to talk normally. something so simple that people don’t even notice and i would give up everything in life to have. if i had a genie who gave me 3 wishes the first wish i would use is to cure my stutter. not infinite money or everlasting health. my only solace is knowing other people have worse conditions than me so i should consider myself fortunate but dude i am envious of others who can talk normal. i mean how do they do it. they dont feel anxiety or something? why does their brain work and mine doesn’t. i’m so cooked