No one should call you that word bud. I’ll be 42 on the 23rd. I’ve stuttered as long as I can remember. I’ve had long term girlfriends, I was with my wife for 17 years til we split in 2022. I’ve been with my current GF for 3 years. I told her right away that I have a stutter. It has no bearing on our relationship. Sometimes I’m quieter because I’m going through a rough patch. You’ll find someone. You don’t deserve to be alone.