I don't feel like a part of society.

I don't feel like a part of society. I've had a mild stutter my entire life. I don't really define myself as having social anxiety because of it, but I definitely avoid certain social situations. I finished high school and I don't want to go to university or get a job because I feel like that's what everyone does and I always saw myself as being different. Sounds a bit edgy, I know, but for me, getting a job and having kids and living the "good" life is just not it. I feel like I'm depressed not only because of my stutter but also because I can't find a reason to try to fit in. However, with all these thoughts and feelings I don't think I'd change being me for someone else.