Well as much as I wanna be positive, I feel the worst I have ever felt, and the most helpless than ever. It doesn't help chronically always having a bank account in the negatives and being forced out of a job you wanted to stay at because they randomly demanded your doctor give them accomodations. I cannot keep myself alive for another year in this state. Life is hell, there's nothing to look forward, every front in my current life is a war, an economic as well, which I tried so deparately to fix. Even my own fucking therpaist and psychiatrist abandoned me earlier in June, probably over political differences. I am convinced there is no love