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Hmm this here: "My current team are also very supportive, they understand that I have stuttering however they don't count me in while speaking to the client or presentation or something which I agree with. No team wants to give a bad impression to the client." I get this. Also going through the same thing on my team. I understand that you have to put the client first and be as presentable as you can for them. There's this stigma around disfluent speech and people tend view it negatively or assign some kind of psychological justification for it like being not confident in what you're saying, incompetent etc. But also we got to recognize that you're a working professional who can bring things to the table and the fact that your team is ignoring your challenges rather than helping you meet them is a big issue. It's a bit condescending to be honest and must feel like they're looking down on you in a way, but not maliciously. You really need to sit down with your team and express what you have put here. That you feel like you could do more with the right support structure in place. You need proper accommodations or support in helping you prep for client meetings. Also chances are your has done minimal research about what stuttering is and have a flawed view of it, which could be driving their behaviour and the way they react to your stuttering. So I think you should share what you know about and your history with it with them. That's good that you've begun to work on your speech in whatever way you can. At least your doing something on that front. Also I suggest you incorporate a simulated environment similar to the one you are having concerns with but you're also using the speech techniques from ex-stutterers. You need to get comfortable with speaking assertively and taking your time speaking in similar situations / conditions as when you'd have a client meeting. This creates those new neural pathways and overwrites the trauma / bad memories / beliefs about what you can and can't speech wise. Like some form of exposure therapy or mock client meetings would probably be more effective, cause practice makes perfect even for stuttering. Perhaps you can discuss this with your team and manager about setting up mock-client meetings. Maybe they can help setup some similar scenario with people from a different team but same department or maybe you can find a friend of friend who's also a software dev and can help create mock scenarios and environment, you can get creative with the possible ways to setup mock-interviews which would help you get accustomed this speaking situation. The next best thing is get some form of accommodations during client meeting. This would work best if the meetings are over Zoom or Teams. That way, if you have a blocked sound or just a hard time saying a point, you write it in the chat window and the client will see it. Of course your team or you would have to preface the meeting letting the client know that you have a speech disorder and that sometimes you have some difficulty same certain words, so kindly keep an eye on the chat when "your name" is speaking or when his speech is halting. Some preface like that in a professional manner would work. I don't know if these are in-person meetings or video conferencing but you've said your team s supportive so maybe y'all can find a way. Cause I'm sure they value your input and your expertise on certain matters. There are many professionals who get accommodations to help them facilitate doing their job. Like say for example, someone who's mute or deaf who's working in a professional environment, they have someone who speaks for them in meetings and they use sign language to tell the person what to say. So it is possible to get such help as a working professional, it's just stuttering aware is low in the workplace and not a common thing people see.