My first year of college I experienced so much of the same thing. You are not alone in what you are feeling. I could barely say a word to anyone, I never spoke in class, and I felt really alone. Through therapy, speech groups, and reading, I was able to become happier with myself as a person and more accepting of my speech. This lead me to talk to way more people and make way more friends. A huge part of stuttering is anxiety, that’s why it’s so hard on us, however once you learn that you are worthy of other people’s attention, are special, and have so much to offer, your speech will undoubtedly get better. It’s not about perfection it’s about being able to look at yourself and feel proud of who you are. Your stutter gives you so many advantages that if you look hard enough, you will begin to see. People feel safer around you, open up to you more, are inspired by you. I went in the talk to my professor to introduce myself 3 days ago and could barely string sentences together, every word felt hard, but just by going in there and complimenting him we had a great 40 minute conversation to which he said that he was beyond inspired by me and that I made his week. There’s something so special and magical about someone who tries knowing they might fail spectacularly. Believe it or not you are better than 99 percent of people in that regard. Life is about failing and getting back up.