commentr/StutterFebruary 8, 2014

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Sorry for posting this late. I teach high school math, and I've been doing so for almost a decade. I have been stuttering as long as I can remember. Growing up, I figured out ways to make my stuttering appear less-obvious, but it's always been and probably always will be a part of me. You want to teach? You want to possibly stutter in front of a classroom full of kids, and try to deal with their reactions and comments? Don't you dare let that get in your way of pursuing your career! I stutter less during my lessons when talking to the class, and it's never really been a problem while giving speeches or presentations during trainings. A lot of my students (150-180 each year) don't even realize I stutter, until I get caught on a word out of the blue. They laugh! I check my pride at the door and laugh with them! I used to get really embarrassed at first and tried to hide it, but I realized when you admit it to them right away, the weight is completely lifted off your shoulders. I'll stutter a word mid-sentence and a few kids chuckle. Believe it or not, high school kids are surprisingly respectful in how they react. Build rapport with your students and they'll respect you. They won't laugh at you if you get caught on a word here or there. The hardest part of my job is calling parents. I hate calling people on the phone. Like others, I stutter the most on the phone. Over the years I've realized that the anxiety comes from the initial sentence or worrying about saying a particular name. When I have to call, I just suck it up and use wording to help with the nerves. Once I am speaking to the parent/guardian, I feel calm and my fluency is excellent. It's part of the job, so you'll have to accept it. One thing you'll notice that when you stand up there in front of your classroom, you'll feel like you're on a stage. Your voice will project, your tone will change, and you'll show confidence - confidence in your lesson, confidence in your ability to teach and manage a classroom of kids. Your nerves will be at an all-time low, and that helps with stuttering. It's like singing, for some reason stuttering seems to be on hold. One last thing: stuttering has been the hardest thing I've dealt with, as I'm sure most people in this subreddit will agree. It has haunted me my whole life. I never thought I'd be speaking in front of people all day for a living, but almost 10 years later, I'm extremely happy. It hasn't been perfect, and I've been embarrassed more than once. Over the years I've taught over a thousand kids and have met hundreds of parents. Even though it always worry about stuttering, I know damn well no one thinks or remembers me as "the teacher that stutters."

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Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

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Avoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentOverthinking & MonitoringStress & Fight/FlightAnxiety & Social JudgmentIdentity & Self-Perception

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