Wow, I feel almost the exact same. I've always wondered if my impediment could be overcome or if I have to work with it, which basically means stuttering all of the time and being okay with that. Just something about that is unsettling. We've all been around people who have some sort of ailment or something that makes them different and it is obvious. Those people tend to be isolated and draw lots of pity, while also being singled out and having no friends or something like that. In the end, I just see it as me being inherently different from most people and thus, people will see me as such and maybe treat me differently or avoid talking about things, am I explaining this well enough? Just the idea of being different and people noticing sets you a part, but not necessarily in a good way. Idk sometimes I feel handicapped and it's extremely discouraging when tring to meet new people and introduce myself, I find i avoid the situations all together to save myself the trouble and anxiety and shame. I just don't know man, I work with it one day at a time and maybe I am improving in someways, but in those same ways, I am digressing from my social, outgoing self.