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I Feel Like A Big Ass Baby Hello, longtime lurker and lifelong stutterer. I tend to be pretty confident about my stutter and I've overcome a lot of fears with practice talking in front of people. For someone with a stutter, I would say I do pretty good. But I fucking hate the phone... Aside from very short phonecalls with my friends and longer ones with my boyfriend and mother, I tend to avoid making phonecalls, especially those that require me to relay information. Recently I've felt like I can't do things for myself that I should be able to. I locked myself out of my apartment, and texted my mom to call the landlord so I could pick up a new key. When I went to get the key the landlord was like "You don't have to get your poor mom to call me, you can call too ya know." And I get it, I'm a grown woman who shouldn't need my mom to relay all my problems to my landlord, but it's not like I'm just lazy. It's unreasonably stressful for me to think of everything in going to say first, sometimes I even write it down, and then god forbid I block or mishear something. Anyway, I just texted my mom that my internet is messed up. I've done all the shit, restarted the router and everything, no luck. She's on the account, so of course she immediately texts me back that she will call them. She doesn't mind, my dad stutters too and she's made his phonecalls for years. But I still feel bad that this is my routine. I can't just pick up the phone and call like a fucking adult. I have to get my mom or my boyfriend to makes my calls and order food at the drive through. On the bright side, thank god a lot of customer support has online chat, I had a whole conversation with apple support about my computer the other day and got it fixed, no phone needed. Thanks for listening to my little rant. It's been bothering me and I thought maybe some of y'all could empathize.