And then it hurts even worse when you see everyone else being able to socialize and get along with each other well. I know that isolating feeling all too well. The absolute worst part being you unintentionally coming off as withdrawn when it's the opposite. You'll find people who are patient and mature enough to talk to you. I hope you do. In my experience there's at least a couple good people in every potential environment that are willing to listen whether if it's school church work etc