I've also tried to end myself too,Not once not twice I tried 6 times and still I am here I realized i could've been dead the 1st time but then I realized it could be a possibility that I am here for a purpose I can't let a normal speech problem control my life there are far bigger things than to it from that day I changed my mindset,and it has helped I still stutter but I don't allow it the get the whole of me I use a method to reduce the stutter known as "riding exhale" in which I speak while exhaling in one continuous flow it helped me I might help you too