I get that. And felts the same way right into my 30s. I’m 40 now so age really does really help. Just ask yourself do you respect people that mock people with other disabilities? because I sure as fuck don’t. Psychedelics are a great way to shatter limiting beliefs and self-image of who we think we are. You are so much more my friend. Meditate and tell yourself I’m not my thoughts, I’m not what people think about me. I’m not my fears, I’m not my past, I’m not even my future, I’m not how much I have in the bank account, I’m not how many friends I have. And… I’m not my stutter. I am peace. I am love. I am that. And so are you. God speed.