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I would like to vent my feelings. I have been stuttering since the age of 4 and i am now 15. I am absolutely sick of stuttering. It holds be back from everything. I get so nervous just standing in line at a fast food restaurant or in the line at a grocery store because i just don't want to say anything. I don't want people to judge me. I hate when people finish my words and look at my blankly waiting for me to continue. A few days ago, while i was with my girlfriend (who is super supportive of me and is the least judgemental person i have ever met) i was getting something at a shop and the lady serving me kept asking me questions and i was struggling to reply. After i had bought what i wanted i walked out of the shop in tears. My parents tried getting me speech therapy but it was just too expensive. They yell at me when i stutter, they think that will somehow help. Once, when i was in grade 6, my mum threatened to take away my laptop if i keep stuttering. No one understands how hard it is to control. No one understands how much it affects me mentally. I am so jealous of everyone who speaks normally and effortlessly. It's such a task to open my mouth and let words come out. Thank you for reading this stupid little rant. Any helpful ideas to help control my stutter would be appreciated.