Hey man, I've been there. Nineteen was the rock-bottom point in my life. Luckily I had something of a breakthrough moment (during a total breakdown) that changed my perspective. Essentially, it comes down to the reality you create for yourself. It is all in your head. You have to change how you interpret the world. It's not something you can switch overnight but you can start thinking about how you think and telling yourself how to think. How can stuttering actually hurt you? It can't. All it can do is embarrass you. In the grand scheme of things, that's nothing. It can't blow off your arm, kill you, stab you, whatever. Just embarrass you. You know it's been holding you back. You don't want the future you envision with stuttering holding you back. So stop letting it. Easier said than done, but you need to start working on a new perspective in life. You need to be okay with getting embarrassed. I know how painful it can be at that age, but realize in the adult world that no one cares about your stuttering or has a problem with it. It's only embarrassing to you. You've got one life. Do you want to spend it hiding from embarrassment, or do you want to roll the dice and see how things go if you open yourself up to the world and risk some embarrassment? When you're on your death bed, are you going to tell yourself you're glad you never stepped out of your comfort zone? In my opinion, forget therapy or trying to fight your stutter. You need to focus on your life and your professional goals. The stuttering will cure itself when you change your mind state. I'm also a big proponent of moving when you're young, going to a new place or small town for work and starting fresh in life. A change of scenery can help change your perspective. Good luck, my friend. You have two choices as a stutterer: 1. Let stuttering hold you back, never really try to get a girlfriend or the dream job and life you want, or 2. See what happens if you try to push yourself.