commentr/StutterAugust 12, 2021

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I feel fine, there maybe a bit tiredness, but not much, I'm definitely not a zombie and can get through my days just fine. I'd say it's more I'm not scared to talk anymore than anything and it just comes out. I'm literally starting to forget I've stuttered for 30+ years which sounds incredibly weird. Another good example was I ordered Chipotle via their app, it's usually right there to pick up and eat. For whatever reason even though I completed and paid for my order, they didn't get the order. I spoke to them about the order and then I had to order just fine without stuttering. In the past, I would have given them my phone or showed them and would have had an incredibly difficult time explaining/telling them I ordered and what I wanted to order, but the words came out just fine, it was literally as if i forgot I've stuttered for 30+ years... so I was far more relaxed as well. That as without taking the 1 mg of Xanax and ONLY the Celexa yesterday morning. I must say I got the idea from The Stuttering Foundation website. A doctor/physician himself had stuttered, scored a 6 out of 7 for severity of stuttering, tried a ton of different medications, therapy etc like all of us. Took 10 mg of Celexa ( citalopram ) a day at night and Xanax ( alprazolam ) 1 mg twice daily and his progress was quick and dramatic. His score went from 6 to 2 on that same 7 point scale rating. He ended up getting off the Xanax after the 20th week, and at some point took 20 mg instead of 10 mg of Celexa, at bedtime.. In comparison, I take 20 mg of Celexa in the morning and literally have only taken Xanax 1mg maybe twice in almost 4 weeks. This info like I said is on the stuttering foundation website, I'd post a link but all I have is a screen shot I sent to myself. Other notable things in the last 4 weeks- I drink drip coffee, nothing in it. I've been going to a coffee shop on a daily basis for a year or so, they know my order in advance. I switched it to an Americano about a week or so ago without any difficulty and still have to tell the others I've switched.. again, without any difficulty. I think my point is.. as someone that has tried probably 100's of things (it seems like), been on disability, has gotten rejected by hundreds of employers and had to move to a different State since I felt like I interviewed everywhere.. If I could go back 5, 10, 20 years, I'd zoom on two possibilities (too much dopamine and a nervous system/anxiety issue). If say in my instance, you take a dopamine blocker and it's by far the worst you've ever stuttered like me.. ehh good chance it has nothing to do with having too much dopamine.. Switch to thinking it's a nervous system/anxiety issue and do what you can and definitely keep your head up, that's for sure haha. Like I said, next week will be a big week with spending a weekend with someone where my stutter has been far far worse than avg, and possibly meeting someone new. If I'm fluent next weekend.. well.. I'd say Celexa and Xanax is what I've needed.

Themes

Meds & SubstancesAnticipation & AvoidanceEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Helpful Med OutcomesAnticipating StutteringAnxiety & Social Judgment

Codes (2)

benzodiazepines_anxiolyticsssris_snris_antidepressants