Open discussion: How did we create stuttering anticipation?

Open discussion: How did we create stuttering anticipation? Let's consider a hypothetical feared letter /P/. How can people who stutter (PWS) create stuttering anticipation on the letter /P/? Based on my personal experience in the past, I've noticed that I stuttered on the letter /P/, and made an [assumption](https://www.reddit.com/r/Stutter/comments/xr6luy/tips_for_people_who_stutter_advice_on_how_to/) by making up convincing arguments why the letter /P/ is difficult to pronounce for me. I've witnessed other people who experienced negative reactions from listeners, and then I likely internalized these experiences and started anticipating as well. Additionally, I perceived that anticipation is a normal thing to do, and then I conformed to this traditional speech norm by associating anticipation anxiety to speech blocks. **Conclusion:** So, [repetitive negative thinking](https://www.reddit.com/r/Stutter/comments/1372xp9/tips_to_improve_stuttering_anticipation_is/) may lead to developing stuttering anticipation. This could be reinforced if we were being teased, were facing social challenges, were experiencing fear of being judged or evaluated based on our speech. If we keep overthinking or over-analyzing about stuttering anticipation, and keep using the word **stuttering anticipation**, then we will likely make this anticipation worse, because humans (1) can't **really** predict blocks, (2) and it only enables us to reinforce repetitive negative thinking and a self-fulfilling prophecy, in my opinion. Yes indeed, anxiety can make us more sensitive to anticipate negative outcomes in speech, however, the opposite is also true, (3) if we keep using the word stuttering anticipation, then it may keep us in this vicious anxiety loop. This is an open discussion. In your experience, how did you create stuttering anticipation?