Hey man, just found your post so I don't know if you're still hanging around here. My situation is super super similar and I have to say it feels good to see I'm not the only one in a similar situation so thank you for the post. Situation is pretty similar, I stuttered when I was young and it came back full on over the last 4 years. It's similar in the way that I basically don't stutter at all when I'm not self conscious of talking but as soon as this kicks in, it all goes down pretty fast. Personnaly, meditation has somewhat helped me. It makes me calm and puts me in a place where I can tackle more easily my stuttering when it shows up (not beating myself up, etc.). That said, I think it sorts of fixes the problem in more of a medication way as the stuttering problem is still there but by making myself less anxious and stressed, my stuttering therefore drops a bit. I still think it helped immensely to able to drop my level of anxiety that way, before an important interview or date or whatever but it's vastly inconsistent. I also understand the dillemma between focusing on it versus sort of ignoring it but in my opinion, a situation will always come back when you'll become self conscious of your stuttering, therefore, I think it's essential to be able to functionnally stutter in cases where you realize you're dialoguing. Good luck and hope you found something u could share in those 13 days haha.