Hi all, first time posting here, I'm 31/m/pws, glad to see this sub exists!

Hi all, first time posting here, I'm 31/m/pws, glad to see this sub exists! Hi, so yeah I'm 31 and I've stuttered my entire life. Before I discovered reddit I spent some time on a website devoted to stuttering/pws and went to some message boards, but everything seemed so inactive. Posts were only made a few times a week, there was very little in the way of an active support group system. It appears to me that this sub is active, and from what I've read from the topics and posts so far its very informative too. "You've done a good job with the place." I suppose every person who stutters, stutters in a way that is unique to them, but when I describe what my stutter is like I'm sure many of you will relate. The way that I understand my stutter is, I am far more likely to stutter with people that I know well, VS. people that I just met or just see on occasion. I'm far more likely to stutter outside of work rather than at work. The people I stutter most with are the people I've known the longest! Family, friends, co-workers (the longer I've had the job) lol..... I'm grateful that I tend not to stutter when I'm talking to customers at work, going for job interviews, talking to people from the college (I do correspondence), etc. Its like, when its "showtime" for me, I'm pretty fluent, although certainly there are times I do stutter. One thing that is very difficult for me has been using the intercom or "PA" system at work. I'll try breathe deeply before pressing the button and saying what I've got to say, but what I end up doing is, after I press the button I need to give myself time to process that "I'm on" and then I can generally speak over the intercom without stuttering, although my breathing is especially labored. The same thing goes for speaking over the phone, although that has become less difficult for me since I've needed to use an intercom at work. I think that when I just let my thoughts flow off my tongue, and I literally don't think at all before speaking, I tend not to stutter. I try to make this happen as often as I possibly can, but its one of those things that you cant think about too much, right? When I think ahead of time about what I want to say, and if I have doubts about my ability to get the words out (I struggle most with words that begin with vowels), or if I am starting a conversation or speaking first after a period of silence, then I am far more likely to stutter. I posted earlier in a thread about someone visiting an otorhinolaryngologist. I've had reason to visit an otorhino several times in my life, due to much difficulty breathing through my nose. I feel the need to go back again to be re-evaluated, and this time I will mention the fact that I've been a lifelong stutterer, and we'll see if this doctor has any insight on the matter. Lateley Ive been stuttering more, because I've been dealing with loss and changes and so forth in my life, so its been somewhat discouraging. But I am encouraged to see that this sub exists and is active and looks like a good support mechanism for people who stutter! Thanks for taking the time to read my long and winding post.