Saying 'you suck at everything' and that is isn't your fault is kind of contradicting. I dont mean to be condescending, but are you working towards any improvement? You remind me of myself a couple of years ago, I stood still, blamed everything and everyone around me, while not doing anything to improve. I've said it before in this sub and i'll say it again, The Mcguire Programme have been one of the best things that have happened to me. I've improved my speech I've improved psychologically, which in turn improves my speech which improves my psyche and so forth. Check it out, it can work wonders but you'll have to put in lots of work!