Stuttering has ruined my life completely

Stuttering has ruined my life completely It has made me mentally stupid and weak like i have no social life bcoz of it , i never excelled in presentstions during my bachelors , all vivas were trauma . ppl used to silently laugh at me . All this trauma led to great depression i didnt prepared well for placements . Now i am jobless sitting at home 2 years after bachelors , i tried speech therapy but nothing is working out . I hate my parents , they neglected this issue when i was kid , there main focus was wellbeing of their family , my father was too ashamed to take me to speech therapy when i was a kid . They always yelled at me snd kept me silent at household due to their failed marriage. They still neglect the issue and act like nothing is wrong with me . I am 24M now with no skills and workex . I feel my life is over , I have no friends too I dont even feel to apply for jobs these days , the weight is getting too much , i have stopped trying to get a job and make myself better . I have an almost 4 GPA , acdemics was never a concern for me . I HAVE LOST SOO MUCH OPPORTUNITIES DUE TO MY STUTTERING I DONT EVEN FEEL TO GET BETTER NOW , I JUST WANNA KEEP HURTING MYSELF BY SITTING AND DOING NOTHING ATP , I CANT