try to get diagnosed because this could be more than stutter. you need to find out what it is that is happening in your brain, so that you can get the right therapy. and you may need to try out [Augmentative and alternative communication - Wikipedia](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Augmentative_and_alternative_communication) and find the one that's right for you. and you will need accommodation if you get a job or when you have to use a public service. so look for accommodation options in your country, and also protection laws for vulnerable adults, because you may qualify as one.