I completely understand where you're coming from. Facing stressful meetings can really amplify anxiety, especially when you're dealing with a stutter. It's tough to feel like you’re on display, and it's natural to want to avoid situations that heighten that fear. Have you considered setting smaller goals for those meetings? Instead of aiming for perfection, maybe focus on just sharing one point or contributing in ways you feel most comfortable. Sometimes, just engaging with a small group or even texting thoughts to a colleague beforehand can lessen the pressure when it's your turn to speak. You might also want to explore tools that can help ease some of that pressure. Personally, I've found that using Parrot Notes helps me a lot. It captures everything that I'm discussing and pulls out key action items automatically, which saves me from stressing about missing important points. That way, I can just be present in the conversation without worrying about taking notes. If your current job continues to be this stressful, it’s okay to look for new opportunities that match your comfort level. Smaller meetings or remote work might indeed help alleviate a lot of that stress. Just remember, it’s about finding what works best for you-it’s completely valid to prioritize your mental health and well-being. You've got this!