I'm 34 and it completely ruined my life too..I know how you feel 10 fold..I don't even know how I'm still alive & I hang on bc I know 1 or 2 family members love me..but when they're gone idk wtf I'm gonna do..I have no skills to work besides labor & night shift security and I have horrible social skills..I gave up on life when I was in my early 20s bc the pain was too great & I never had money or insurance to get help & nobody cared to help me bc most ppl thought I came across as normal to be handicapped...I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy