I'm a 33F who has been stuttering and saying words backwards for years

I'm a 33F who has been stuttering and saying words backwards for years I'm a 33 year old female. I've been trying to overcome my social anxiety for several years. I stutter when I'm thinking about what to say in the middle of a sentence while speaking. I get nervous and feel like I'm experiencing a panic attack. I say words backwards. I stutter throughout the whole sentence. I can't explain explain my thoughts clearly. It's really embarrassing for me at that moment. Any advice from anyone is more than welcome. Message me.